I have only one more week of true youth.
I should have taken more advantage of the fact that for the last 4 months I was able to truthfully say, "I'm in my twenties and my husband is in his forties." It sounds like I am married to a dangerously older man, that he is my Sugar Daddy and I was the pretty young thing he just HAD to have! Or something equally inappropriate. I told Than this last night and he said, "Yeah! I'm twice your age right now!" :)
All this will change on Sunday when I hit the big 3-0. Luckily, I have a master plan: We are blessing Holland that day, so I won't have to think about my birthday. Bwah-ha-ha-Hah!
I usually don't mind birthdays, in fact, I LOVE birthdays, but sometimes milestone birthdays can be hard. Actually, only one time a milestone birthday was hard: the day I turned 25. It all started out fun. My roommates (mostly the wonderful Jo) went to all sorts of trouble to make the day great. Everywhere I went (classes and work) there was a surprise gift waiting for me to unwrap. Then there was a party at our place that night. Here is when it turned ugly. You see, when you turn 25, one box of candles no longer cuts it. They come in packs of 24. I was now a two boxes of candles girl. So what do my roommates do with the extra 23 candles left in the box? Do they save them for the upcoming 23rd birthday of one of the other roommates? NOooooo. That would be too logical! They put ALL 48 CANDLES on my cake! When they came out of the kitchen with that cake all ablaze I freaked out inside and suddenly felt very, very old. Sure, I smiled while everyone sang "Happy Birthday to You...", but inside I was yelling, "Shut up! Shut up! Everybody SHUT UP!" and I was gripping the arms of my chair to keep me from jumping up and running screaming from the house. That may sound a tad dramatic, but it's the absolute truth. I'm hoping to not repeat those feelings this time around.
Wish me luck. Cause we all know this just isn't true...
Monday, October 12, 2009
Only one more week...
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Pictures of Holland
Just look at how sweet she is! I have yet to capture a real smile with the camera. She can be super smiley, but as soon as I pull out the camera she looks at me thoughtfully like, "What is that thing in front of Mommy's face?"
This next pic is the closest to a smile that we've got. She does smile much bigger than this. :)
Had her two month appointment yesterday. She is 24 inches, which puts her in the 94th percentile for length, and 11 lbs, 8.5 oz., which drops her from the 88th percentile at her 1 month appt to the 65th for weight. Our Dr. said not to worry...yet. She is gaining weight, but just not like she probably should. How can this be? I feel like all I do ALL DAY is feed this kid. For example, I got up and fed her twice during the night and then this morning she nursed for more than AN HOUR AND A HALF STRAIGHT! Actually, when I think about it, it was more like 2+ hours. Yikes. Now she'll go a few hours without nursing, but she would nurse if I tried. What is going on?
She also got her first round of shots yesterday. I cried more than Holland did. I was already crying before the lady came in the room to give the shots. Someone gave me the great advice to make sure Holland would be hungry, so as soon as the shots were done I could nurse her and she would forget about the pain. Worked like a charm. This isn't a difficult task, though, since she is ALWAYS ready to nurse. The only way she would possibly be not interested in nursing after the shots is if I had been nursing her directly before AND during the shots. That would have made for an awkward visit with the Dr. Anyway, she was a trooper and I was a baby. I'm pretty sure I'm not the first mom to cry more than the kid, right?
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Goldfish Cracker Ears
The insides of my daughter's ears look like the outline of a Pepperidge (sp?) Farm Goldfish Cracker. They are also hairy little hobbit ears, but I digress...
Do you see it? I love it!
You may also note the lovely length of my thumbnail. That's right, I haven't bitten my nails since the day Holland was born. Why? Not sure. But if you go back to this post, you will see that it's quite the accomplishment. :)
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Thanks, Love.
A huge thanks to my darling for his wonderful and entertaining synopsis of the birth of our little baby. I only have one correction to make- Than did not sleep through the whole thing! From the moment we arrived at the hospital he was right there by me either holding my hand or taking turns with Jennifer pushing on my knees to relieve back labor pain. He was, along with Jenn, wonderful and tireless. He was being very modest about his part in the whole birth process. I couldn't have done it without him.
On a different note, now that I am spending all my time at home feeding a baby, I have been watching a bit more TV than ever before (we only get 8 cable channels). Can I just say that I am stoked for Project Runway to start? I have never watched it before but I am excited to see what all the hoopla is about.
Update:
SAD FACE!
I realized that we don't have the Lifetime Channel, we only have LMN (Lifetime Movie Network) that advertised for Project Runway NON STOP. My bad. I usually don't watch the movies on LMN. Everytime we pass it, there is some movie about people cheating or plotting murder or something. I saw all the advertising while I watched "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" yesterday. Don't judge me.
I have watched a lot of lame shows lately. Half the time I am breastfeeding Holland and have left the remote just out of reach so I can't change the channel. I never learn.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Susie Conquers Again!
Susie is adorable. If you don't believe me, just check out this picture from the afternoon before Holland was born:As you may recall, the little tyke had tried to peek out several weeks earlier, but never made it past 3 cm. Then suddenly, during an overnight expedition (during which Susie fought valiantly with the help of Hypnobabies), Holland made it as far as 7+ cm.
The next day at the doctor's office, it was surmised that, if the waters were to be parted, the baby would join us after a few pushes. So, the journey that began 41 weeks and 2 days earlier brought us to Dixie Regional Medical Center this fateful afternoon. Accompanying us was the ever vigilant doula, Jennifer:(Here it should be noted that she never lost her fabulous smile, no matter how daunting or perilous the journey). Through the help of the more-experienced, the less-experienced were given tips to help ease the pain incurred during the final passage:
The next 12 hours passed as though a dream . . .
. . . some would say a bad dream. To save you time, and to cover for the must-have-been-sleeping photographer, we'll let you imagine what happened, as you scroll down.
The doctor parted the waters . . .
. . . imagine a valiant woman in labor . . .
. . . and a small child inside, pondering what might be just outside . . .
. . . regular contractions, increasing in intensity . . .
. . . especially as the doula pulls tricks out of her bag of . . . tricks . . .
. . . making the contractions stronger, and the "pressure" more prounounced . . .
. . . imagine this for oh, about 12 hours. Now remember that the previous night was spent mostly in labor at home, with little sleep. During an especially vigorous set of contractions, the doctor says, "those noises sound like a woman who's about to give birth. Have them come get me when you're ready to push it out." He checks the baby's progress, but doesn't mention what it might be.
After another hour of especially intense labor, the doctor checks the progress again. Now, recall that the doctor had previously said that a few short pushes should help the baby arrive after the water was broken. Imagine how Susie must have felt when, after about 26 hours of unmedicated labor, and going on about 4 hours of sleep during the last two days, the doctor comes in again to check the progress, and with a resigned voice says, "I have to be honest, you haven't progressed at all since I saw you in my office this morning."
SAD FACE.
Using a sort of pressure sensitive device, it was determined that, in spite of all of the pain and hours of labor suffered, the contractions weren't strong enough to actually push the baby out. The contractions needed to be stimulated to be stronger, or the risk of a c-section could be very probable. "This is why women used to die during childbirth," stated the physician. But, an increase in contractions caused by artificial means also meant a significant leap in pain. And it was obvious that she was almost pushed to her limit already.
"I just want a break," was the extent of Susie's complaining.
As you are pondering what the mother-to-be must have felt at this moment, consider what the doula Jennifer, who had untiringly pushed, consoled, advised, and in every other appropriate way aided and comforted the pregnant woman, must have felt as she gazed on her friend's face. And think about the husband, who was mostly sleeping the night before while his wife labored away at home, and who snacked on Wheat Thins (TM) and rested frequently during the hospital labor, watching the women do all the work. Even HE was tired at this point.
And that is why, after careful consideration and thoughtful prayer, it was decided to take advantage of modern medicine to help complete the labor process.
Whilst enduring contractions every minute, and at the fear of convulsing inadvertently at any importune moment and becoming paralyzed for life, an epidural was administered, followed shortly by pitocin. Finally, relief came in the form of a good nap, and Susie got the break she so desperately needed.
Even at this point, however, the worst was not yet over. While Susie was resting, Jennifer was watching vitals expectantly, and soon began to become concerned as she noticed a dip in oxygen levels. Knowing that this could lead to more complications, and increase the possibilty of a c-section, she said a fervent prayer in behalf of mother and child. Shortly thereafter, levels stabilized.
Many tiny miracles combined to form one great miracle, and after a brief respite, contraction levels were consistent and at a level strong enough to push the baby into position. Mother woke up, and the nurse helped coach the baby down, while daddy and an assistant helped with the "legwork." Shortly thereafter, in the words of one witness, a baby "larger than a doll," was born at 4:15 a.m.
She was adorable!She weighed in at about 0.5 ounces under 10 pounds:
Daddy wiped the sleep from his eyes and said, "what happened?"
Mommy loves her instantly.
The Goebel heritage appeared to be prominent.
In the words of another observer, "she's a tute tid."
Mommy and baby spent a few days in the hospital to make sure everything was O.K. Many friends and family stopped by to wish them well.
Susie is recovering well, and Holland is very healthy! She is very thoughtful and good-natured, just like her mommy! We feel extremely blessed.
Thanks to everyone for your thoughts and prayers! We love you!!
Monday, August 3, 2009
She's here!
Name: Holland Elise
Birth Date: July 31st, 2009
Time: 4:15 am
Weight: 9 lbs 15.4 oz (I can safely round up to 10 pounds, right?)
Length: 21 inches
More details to come when we've all had a little more sleep :)
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Here's what's goin' on...
We had a Dr's appointment yesterday. It included a non-stress test and an ultra sound. The ultrasound showed that Holland has plenty of fluid to be alright in there for awhile (at least for the time being) and that she has been growing properly. She is really long and they estimate that she is around 7 lbs 11 oz, though that is just an estimate and can be off by a pound or more in either direction. But even if she is 8 lbs 11 oz that's still a reasonable size for being overdue. I think my Dr thought I had some monster-sized baby inside me and that was the creating the hold up (if you will). When the ultrasound tech told him her weight, he looked at me and said, "So, why haven't you had that baby, yet?!" Like I'm the Dr.
The exam shed some light on the situation. I haven't progressed since my 37 week appointment. At 36 weeks I could totally tell that the baby had dropped. The Dr. confirmed this. At that point, her head was totally in the right position. So, at my 37 week appointment I had made all kinds of crazy progress (3 cm and 70% effaced). During the next week I could tell that she wasn't quite down where she had been, but didn't think much of it. At all my subsequent appointments I have been the same 3 cm and 70%. So, my Dr. who last week was talking induction by 41 weeks (I said no. If the baby was fine we would wait) was this week admitting that induction would have been and would be a one-way ticket to a C-section. She is hung up somewhere and hasn't engaged in the "pocket" like she had been at 36 wks and inducing me wouldn't have changed that, it would have just turned into an emergency. He says now we are just in a waiting game. Waiting for Holland to turn her head just right, tuck in her chin, and engage with the cervix. He says when that happens, the rest of labor will probably go very quickly.
Instead of just waiting around for that to happen I have been doing pelvic tilts, walking like crazy, doing lunges, swaying my hips like I am working a hula hoop while I talk on the phone, etc. At least I can DO something to help and not just wait around.
So, that's the latest. I had been praying for patience, but now I am praying for Holland to position herself just right. Anyone who would like to join their prayers to mine, it would be much appreciated. :)
This pic shows where she should be. She is just a little north of there.



